Dear You

Dear You,


Thank you for all the pain, hurt, trouble and almost craziness you've caused me. For all the emotional and mental torture i've been through because of you. You've made me strong, stubborn and hard hearted, in a self forfend way.

Thank you for tribulation. For all the agonizing words you just have been said to me, wondering if you mean it or not. When i know in my head it was all true because of the sudden jolt i felt in my heart.

Thank you for all the tears. I've cried not because I've been hurt, but because I'm afraid of what might happen next. Now that I've changed, don't ask me nor yourself why. I know this is just the way my body knows, for me not to become so fragile.
Nevertheless, I'am also thankful for the love we shared. For those little moments that we're so happy that we forget the world behind us. I'm very happy yet I don't want to show it, for i'am afraid that it would turn doleful.

If only I could be the one you're always wanted me to be. If only I could be the one you're always dreaming of: sweet, will cuddle you from dawn to dusk or even public, will tell you sweet things, all contradicting to mine.

Yes I may not be your type, but I'm still trying to be. There's so much I wanted to tell you, but i know you're not interested so i decided not to.

One day, you'll find that person you're always forcing me to be. It maybe me or it may be another. For whatever fate may bring, I thank you still.






Love,
Me